Saturday, February 6, 2010

Not content

I woke up this morning from dreaming that we were having our bathroom remodeled. I was amazed to wake up before the baby and I cannot go back to sleep. My thought went from my very realistic dream to realizing how dingy our kitchen is. I made a mental note on how we can improve the look and efficiency of it. But reality hits, we do not have the money and I don't want to take a loan for house remodeling -- at least not until I return to full-time job. Then, this afternoon, I watched the New Yankee Workshop. In that episode, Norm was finishing the cabinetry of a remodeled kitchen. It made me unhappy again with my kitchen.

I've been telling people that Benji will be my only child. I gave several reasons from financial to health reason. But deep inside, I desire for another child. I waver a lot on this issue. I know that if I want to have a second one, we have to act soon because of my fertility issue. I noticed that I bring this topic everyday to my husband in the last few weeks. We discussed the pros and cons. Financially, there are more cons. We would like to travel abroad someday and help Benji in his college education. These will be difficult if we have 2 children. But why do I have this nagging desire to have another child?

Anyway, to keep my mind from discontent I decided to learn how to make movie using my Flip Video Camera This is my 1st Benji Movie:


geri said...

Congrats in making your fist home movie =) Benji's sooooo cute. I love those baby fat all over. I was just watching Evan's baby videos too this morning, I am appreciating it even more than I did now that he is a "lot" older. If you and your husband want another baby I say go for it!

kala said...

He seems to enjoy bathtime more and more, yay!

Re: teething, yeah, I've heard some acquaintances tell me that their child had their first tooth at around 3-4 months. In fact, I was convinced that Lila was teething because like Benji she was drooling and biting at anything, but it's been a month and still no tooth. So I guess it's just normal, the excessive drooling and biting. Or maybe you'll be lucky and Benji won't give you any trouble when his tooth starts to show.

haze said...

Indeed crazy how babies change ! I so love this video. I have tried traveling alone with my 2 kids (they were 6 and 4 yrs old at that time) it wasn't bad as they are a bit autonomous already. I am sure you can do it as well if you plan to have another baby ;) ! Now, I will be having my 3rd baby and I am sure it's another organization and strict time management. Good luck to us !

Normally, teething starts around 6th month. Some are born with teeth already, but that is rare.